It was a beautiful evening when I stepped out to meet “Man
Candy” at the restaurant overlooking the river. This was our fourth date on our second go
around. Since he’s an ex in “dating
math” that’s practically the matching sweaters stage, or at least completely
respectable to have intimate relations (translation: hot monkey sex…).
Going into the date before this, I wasn’t exactly sure if it
was a trip to the “friend zone” or to ‘lovers lane”… but after a steamy makeout
session and blood rushing to various naughty bits, I could easily rule out the
friend zone, check. However, the last
question I wanted to ask myself was “where are we, where is this going?” I enjoyed this stage of flirting, kissing
and talking – there didn’t have to be any exchanges of promises or bodily
fluids for me to be happy. In fact, I’m
trying to hold my heart back and to be honest it hasn’t been too hard because
he is too.
I didn’t have a game plan mapped out for this date or any
specific moves. In fact, I worked late
and had to rush getting ready for the night.
It was a hot summer night and I wore a very sexy number that showed a
lot of cleavage and yet was sexy without being slutty. He smiled when he saw me and greeted me
with a tight hug and a kiss.
We were seated in the crowded restaurant, ordering drinks
and catching each other up on our days.
Now that we are in the routine of keeping in touch every day, the
conversation flowed easily. We talked
about the first time we dated (6 months ago) and how this time was different. He admitted that there was so much about me
that he didn’t know the first time because he didn’t exactly give me a chance
to share a lot of myself to him. He went
on to say that the things that he knows about me now make him like me a lot
more.
He stopped short of thanking me per se for seeing him again,
but that it was a pleasure to get to know all my layers. I added that the first time we dated that
when we were out, we had our hands all over each other and now we do more
talking. I explained that one of the
reasons I agreed to see him again and to even consider a romantic reunion was
that he wasn’t the kind of man who had sex for sport. It meant something to him and he didn’t sleep
around. He became quiet and took a deep breath before
he confessed that he hasn’t been with anyone since we broke up in
February. My words came slowly and I
looked down before I spoke them, then meeting his eyes again, telling him that
I hadn’t been with anyone else either.
Our words seemed to float in the air, our eyes were lockedon each other and everything else seemed to be frozen around us. It was one of those moments in life that
feels like a slow motion. The heart
that I had previously been so successful holding onto was now thumping hard in
my chest. I looked down at his mouth
approaching mine and then again at his eyes before closing my eyes. I felt his lips and we shared a long, passionate
kiss. The kiss seemed to make the words
official.
We paid the check and he walked me to my car. Finally, we had some privacy and our makeout
sesh became intense, maybe too intense for the parking garage. We were startled by the sarcastic honk of a
passing car. The driver obviously didn’t
care about this turning point in our relationship, whatever… lol.
He was a little embarrassed about the passing car, but I
didn’t care and I kissed him harder, pressing him against my car. As I kissed him, I was also mentally
processing what he told me and trying to decide if it really made a difference
or if I was exaggerating it because I wanted it to mean something. My thoughts raced as he pulled me tighter to
him, now kissing my neck. I could
instantly feel my defenses melt and wished I didn’t have to go home tonight, yet
knowing it was best that I did. I
yanked him by his belt loops against me and gasped when I did, feeling his obvious
desire.
Leaving him was difficult but I knew I should. We exchanged short kisses and as we parted,
we were reluctant to let go of each other’s hands. The drive home was a daydream with romantic scenes
from our past, tonight and what it would be like to sleep next to him again. Admittedly, I was loosening the tight grip
of my heart and for the moment it didn’t really seem to matter.
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